Broken Hallelujah

Ally and I 

This past weekend my wonderful, giving, loving, honest, and hard working sister came to visit and help me plant, pull weeds, love on my children, and laugh.  I couldn't let her do all the work so of course I was right next to her....ok, maybe a little behind.  But it was absolutely grand sharing spring with her.

Today, I think the adriamycin and cytoxan effects of anemia must be kickin' in.  I am spent.  Tired.  Yet not sleepy.  Easily fatigued.  But rest does not help.  At least I am eating.... it helps take the nasty taste out of my mouth. Perhaps I'll gain some of that 20 pounds I lost with taxol.

Today, this is my song.  (Broken Hallelujah, The Afters)

I can barely stand right now
Everything is crashing down
And I wonder where You are
I try to find the words to pray
I don't always know what to say
But You're the one who can hear my heart

Even though I don't know what your plan is
I know You're making beauty from these ashes

I've seen joy and I've seen pain
On my knees, I call Your name
Here's my broken hallelujah
With nothing left to hold onto
I raise these empty hands to You
Here's my broken hallelujah

You know the things that have brought me here
You know the story of every tear
‘Cause You've been here from the very start

When all is taken away
Don't let my heart be changed
Let me always sing hallelujah
When I feel afraid
Don't let my hope be erased
Let me always sing hallelujah

Hallelujah
I will always sing
Here's my broken hallelujah

Journey Joys: Bluebells blooming radiantly, 22 baby chicks hatching today (ah, make that 23), breakfast with Lynne, sunshine and warmth, ham and potato casserole (thanks Burt!), and yummy chocolate dipped cookies.